That time in your life

Have you ever had a time in your life when you felt completely akward, or ugly or fat? Well, if you're me you have those moments often. The reason I ask is that about 2 years ago I was having one of these moments. One that lasted for months. I had just given birth to the most amazing, adorable little boy (Ok, so I'm a bit biased), and one of my closest friends, Amy Marco had asked me to be in her wedding months before. I love weddings, and I love Amy, so I jumped at the chance.

Never did my mind jump to the actual dress fitting where I was pregnant as all get out standing next to these petite, thin girls getting fitted for the dress I was going to wear in her wedding. The dress was pretty, and blue, but being the size that I was, and 1 month til my due date, I was feeling a bit like an overgrown blueberry. My only consolation was that I knew that I would be 6 months post baby by the time the wedding rolled around. Plenty of time to lose all of the weight right? *Insert hysterical laughter here*

Fast forward a few months (6 to be exact) to the actual date of the wedding. For some strange reason, I was not the svelte, thin, attractive girl that I had pictured I would be in my head when this wonderful day rolled around.

I dreaded getting my picture taken, which for anyone who knows me knows how out of character this is for me. I LOVE pictures. Well, I spent most of the day trying to dodge the "unnecessary" pictures, so there would be less documenation of the hugeness that was me at the time. Anyway...to make a long story apparently even longer...my friend Ian sent me the above picture of me at Amy's wedding.

I was floored. I actually look decent. I was terrified to even look at the picture, but hey...it's not half bad. Thank you Ian. You completely made my day. :) And you made me question what else I had built up in my head as "horrible" that may not have been.