A Mind Is A Terrible Thing

Don't you agree? No matter how much you try to preoccupy said mind with mind-numbing activities, it always sneaks up on you and plays mental images and thoughts endlessly. I have been trying to busy myself and my mind from the current events, but to no avail. I have this endless loop of images and thoughts that keeps replaying in my head. I thought rather than sit and sulk in my leather chair watching movies, I would get up and move around – my thought process…the more I move the quicker my body will go through this whole process. So far it seems to be working, as today was a rather painful day (physically that is).

So instead of watching TV, I mowed the lawn. Yep. I mowed the lawn. It was also looking a little yellow (I know it’s winter and all, but my neighbor’s lawn looks very good so I figured mine should too). I went to the store with Sue and we bought some lawn food that we sprayed on both the plants and the lawn. I have to admit that it made the yard look a little nicer. I would have posted pictures, but frankly – I didn’t feel like taking a picture. Sorry.

Sue (my mother in law) has been a Godsend. I’m not sure that I have appropriately expressed my gratitude and appreciation, but I am hoping that she will know (or at least read it here) :) From the moment I found out about my miscarriage, Jim and Sue were on their way down to be with us. They drove down from Big Bear, and came and sat with us, had dinner with us, and then Sue stayed the night. She is going to stay through to Saturday and has been very helpful with Caiden. They played with his Jeep, played cars and have just had a good time. Of course he loves every minute of it). Sue listens to me when I want to talk, but doesn’t press me to do so either. I have my moments of weakness, and she is there for that.

Sue and Caiden also made cookies. We went to the store and bought the appropriate materials, and decided to make cookies for Papa Jim, the neighbor next door (A solider –Marine- who just returned home from Iraq…we thought we would welcome him home and thank him for serving our country, and of course we made enough cookies to eat ourselves. We made three kinds. Chocolate chip, White Chocolate Macadamia, and Peanut Butter. Yummy.

I did some laundry…well I did A LOT of laundry…it had been a while since I was on bed rest, so I had some catching up to do. I probably have about 4-5 more loads to do, but I will wait until tomorrow. After dinner, we sat down and watched Survivor, CSI, and Grey’s Anatomy. We all just turned in for bed, but I couldn’t sleep, so I thought I would write a little blurb here and then maybe…just maybe…I could find the off switch in my brain and drift into the darkness that I find so comforting right now. Sounds very depressing and a bit pathetic…hope it’s not taken that way, I just haven’t found my dreams very useful lately, so I prefer nothing.

Anyways, I don’t seem to have much left to say, so I guess I will give this whole sleeping thing a try. Wish me luck. :)